My Little Grey Cloud
What is it about, my little grey cloud?
Mental Health and my little grey cloud, go hand in hand.
I have suffered depression in the past, I suffered badly with post natal depression at least twice.
On the whole I like to think I am a half full glass kind of girl.
Some Days are just a little blue
There is no reason or rhyme to why or how, but some days are just blue.
I can have a very good day, be super busy, like Saturday with not enough sleep. I went into London with one daughter, met up with a wonderful fun friend and we had such a giggle.
The following day, I struggled.
It was as if my Little Grey Cloud had come for a visit, I picture it as small and fluffy pale grey, but still dull as clouds can be.
On these days when my little grey cloud pays a visit I struggle.
I become unsociable, I am exhausted and feeling drained, so I end up hybernating at home.
I feel guilt
I feel very guilty for it can not be good for my children, but you know that they just accept that Mummy is tired, they are pretty amazing.
Explaining my little grey cloud hanging over me, is not easy, so I tell them I am feeling so very tired, not low.
Some days this happens when we have made plans.
I cancel what we were doing and the guilt is there.
Luckily these days are rare
Looking on the positive, these down days are not very often at all.
Maybe once a month, My little grey cloud hangs over me, which means I am winning on the whole.
I try my hardest to be the best Mum I can, but I am not perfect and I do believe my children think I am fine as I am.
Without Clouds we would not have Rainbows
Just think about that for a moment.
With out the Clouds, then we simply would not have the Rainbows.
This is such a lovely way to look at it.
Who does not like a Rainbow?
My Rainbows are my Children, my Family and my Friends, my cats too.
I am so grateful, I have such loving caring, cheeky children.
I am grateful for my down days,
I would not be Loving Life and Living Life as much as I can on the more positive days.
Bring on the Sunshine, bring on the Rainbows, but little grey cloud, keep your visits rare please.